“What’s happened is basically I won’t be bowling this year or probably moving forward unless this situation gets sorted out and it’s just something that they can’t say, ‘Look, you’re not going to have a fatal bleed on the field or it’s not going to cause long-term damage’.
“It’s pretty shattering. It’s something that I’ve come to terms with now, but over the last four or five months, it’s been a very very tough period. I’ve played this game my whole life and I wanted to keep playing it, I wanted to play tournaments all around the world – that’s one of the reasons why I retired early from one-day and four-day cricket.
“To see it maybe slipping away, it’s pretty tough to take and at this stage unless something miraculous happens I won’t be able to bowl. It’s literally just bowling, it’s not running, I can do boxing, weight sessions, rowing, anything like that but as soon as the pressure at the crease of match intensity when I step it up, literally I just burst blood vessels in my lungs.
“I walk back to my mark and cough up some blood so it’s pretty scary but they can’t tell me for sure that it’s not going to cause long-term damage so there’s a lot of grey area surrounding it, but it’s not a very nice thing to have happen at the moment.”